I HAVE DECIDED
I have decided to find myself a home in the mountains, somewhere high up where one learns to live peacefully in the cold and the silence. It’s said that in such a place certain revelations may by discovered. That what the spirit reaches for may be eventually felt, if not exactly understood. Slowly, no doubt. I’m not talking about a vacation.
Of course at the same time I mean to stay exactly where I am.
Are you following me?
– Mary Oliver
Over the past couple of months, I have toyed around with the idea of setting up a daily meditation practice at the same time each day, every day. I made up my mind mid-December that I was going to start in January after picking up the book Journey to the Heart by Melody Beattie.
In addition to that I wanted to start a group on Facebook where we would meet daily to listen to a recording of the daily passage. However, after completing some research, I need to have written consent from the publisher before taking on this task.
Instead, I am going to document my “findings” throughout the month and see what surfaces. Perhaps then I will be able to take on a group setting. In the meantime, here’s what I’ve learned so far…
- having a desire to do something and actually doing it are two different things – I almost forgot today
- losing track of what you’re meditating on is very easy to do
- having not set a timer, it was a pleasant discovery to see how long I sat • the breath is an integral part of the practice
- having a terrible cold will send you into a major coughing fit if not seated in the right position…which moved me into a state of complete surrender, rounded shoulders with head bowed, tears streaming down my face
- ideas will stream through you, inspiration will hit
- you will be amazed at the feelings of gratitude moving through your body
- clarity is your friend
I have not experienced a set daily meditation practice before, for any length of time. Having a regular yoga practice, gave me the illusion that I was getting it done in the studio. I can’t speak to a daily meditation practice if I haven’t experienced it. If my path is to do THIS then I must step into more of what I know to do. In reflection, it just wasn’t the right time.
It truly is amazing what you can hear when you stop and slow down, even for just a moment. What you start to notice around you when there’s just you and your breath. When you start to connect your physical body with the spiritual body. When your thoughts take a break. When it’s just you, your intention and silence. When you’re completely connected with yourself, one moment in time until the next moment presents itself. The ultimate freedom.
The foundation has been building for years now, it’s time to take it to the second ‘story’.
Much love, Christy