mom guilt

chances are,

if you’re a Mom you’ve probably had it

chances are,

it will eat you up inside, especially at night

chances are,

it will consume you at some point

chances are,

it will affect the relationship you have with yourself

chances are,

you will start to layer blame on top of blame

chances are,

you may try to hide it from yourself and others

chances are,

you may find it breaking you up inside

chances are,

the cracks will get wider and deeper

chances are,

it will make you start to question all of the other areas of your life that you feel confident in

chances are,

you’ll keep it inside, or try to anyways

chances are,

you may shatter

chances are,

you’ll feel damaged, broken, and unworthy

chances are,

you’ll fall on your knees

chances are,

you’ll find yourself in a situation where you’ll find the courage to talk about it with one safe person in your life

chances are,

they will feel the exact same way you do, but especially if they are a Mom too

chances are,

it may look a teeny tiny bit different than your story, but not by much

chances are,

you’ll ask for help

chances are,

you’ll get the support and help you need if you ask, even if it feels silly. Even if your “too old” to be asking. Even if “you should know better”

chances are,

that by sharing your story you will feel like 1,000 bricks have been lifted off of your shoulders

chances are,

that lightness will motivate you to keep working and loving on yourself

chances are,

you will feel better, more hopeful, less lonely and willing to get to the bottom of it once and for all

chances are,

you will smile more and it will radiate out those broken cracks

chances are,

you were doing the best that you could in each of those moments

chances are,

you thought that that wasn’t good enough

chances are,

it was and it soooooo is

chances are,

we make “mistakes”….we are having a human experience after all

chances are,

you will have new tolerance and acceptance level of what is ok and what isn’t

chances are,

you’ll give yourself a break more often

chances are,

that will feel good too

chances are,

more things will come into your life that make you feel…even more good

chances are,

your priorities will change

chances are,

that will be perfectly a-ok

chances are,

people will ask you what you are doing that is making you be much more happy, lighter, free

chances are,

that will make you feel pretty damn good

chances are,

i’ts because you know that you’ve put in the work to make things different

chances are,

you will respect your newfound boundaries

AND YOU WILL LOVE IT.

chances are,

there will be bumps and bruises along the way. they will hurt and sometimes they will make you cry

chances are,

you will lose friends and people in your life along the way

chances are,

it’s because you’ve found yourself

chances are,

you will be surprised at how much you love yourself in a different way

chances are,

all of the relationships in your life with meaning will blossom and flourish

chances are,

you will love your kids in a whole new way on a whole other level

chances are,

that bond will have gotten even stronger and even more connected

chances are,

you’ll have mom guilt again, but you’ll just smile to yourself, because you know, you KNOW that there are a few more tools in your mom toolbelt.

Mom guilt seems to be a huge area of discussion right now, so one day I decided to put paper to pen and write about it.  What came out is what is above, without editing.  If you’re a Mom, I hope it helps you in some way, even to just start a new discussion with yourself. Parenting is a “job” that comes with no manual, and some days it’s easy to feel like we are failing. BUT as our kids grow, and we see them as their peers do, or other adults or watch them shine under their own hard work and determination, I can’t help but be a little freaking amazed at our kids and how unbelievably awesome they are. Sending much love out to all the Moms out there…xx, Christy